It's been over a year since
Paul Arden died but the other day I received an email from
Creative Review informing me that there was going to be a Seminar devoted to him. I slept on it, not thinking there would be a blind panic to get tickets and found, to my chagrin, that it sold out! This post, therefore, is my response to not being able to go along to that Seminar and also to make some kind of amends for not having written something at the time of Paul's death.
Paul and I knew each-other very well, and we were good friends. It's been slightly weird, even awkward, having someone you cared for die who was so very famous. Naturally Paul knew thousands of people, and he meant a great deal to many of them. I'm not the type to clamber over hordes in the attempt to plant a flag of my own - well, at least I waited a year till the hullabaloo died down! But I did think we were close.
I first met Paul as a runner at Arden Sutherland-Dodd, the company he set up with his brilliant son-in-law Nick. This was 1996 and I had just left Ridley Scott Films under a massive black cloud. I'd actually tendered my resignation to the then MD Jo Godman, but somehow the rumor mill had twisted this around. Apparently she had fired me because I'd used the (extremely basic) editing suite in the basement to make my own films. In fairness to Godman I was in a mess and had been getting progressively more eccentric in my tenure there - a combination of the extremely long hours one was expected to work and my getting wrapped up in the exploding Jungle Techno scene (and all that entailed...) I suppose the symbolic encapsulation of this would be my turning up to work with the Metalheadz logo cut into my hair!
Anyway, though we never actually discussed this, Paul had always believed that being fired from a company was more often-than-not a positive thing in one's favour. I on the other hand had got my act together, I haven't smoked a joint since October 1996 (or touched any other chemical for that matter), and was a clean, mean running machine - ultra-efficent and hard-working. So there was a kind of marriage of reputation and improved character. This guy wasn't anything like everyone suggested!
Very early on Paul and I had lunch, just the two of us, at Pizza Express on Dean Street. I remember we talked about my trip to West Africa throwing Techno Raves, my split-second writing Teletubbies (and being driven around Stratford-upon-Avon in Ann Wood's Rolls Royce) and my love of music. Paul was his usual self, a fount of hilarity - but seemingly not self-aware and in some ways sweetly blind to the world around him. Paul wouldn't regale you with anecdotes, or ever name-drop though he would occasionally lay some wisdom on you, he was just naturally charming. We ended up having lunch together a great many times over the years.
Eventually I stopped running, I remember being on set with him (among many places) at the oldest tree in Britain, in a warehouse in Hammersmith and at Black Island Studios, but I didn't lose touch with Paul. He started using me as a Photoshop operator - something I wasn't exactly qualified for, but picked up very quickly. He would come round to my house off Old Street and we would work in my tiny study - Paul occasionally exploding into one of his mammoth tantrums. I'd seen these many times in the office at D'Arblay Street - there was something at the same time epic and tender about them. Paul would practically hit the ceiling, explode, wave his arms around and curse. I'd seen people cowering at his feet when they were the subject of this wrath, but the endearing thing was just how quickly it would pass. You'd, for instance, shift an image a centimetre to the right and he'd go (diminuendo, wiping his forehead) "Yes...Yes...that's it...Yes". These rages never bothered me in the slightest, I kind of relished them actually, as I think other people who enjoyed his company would probably confess. There was always something rather glorious about them.
We did lots of jobs together in this capacity. A book cover for Hermann Vaske, a self-motivational manual for his film company (which I think perhaps contained the germ for "
It's Not How Good You Are, It's How Good You Want To Be"), artwork for his film the "The Man Who Couldn't Open Doors", bits and pieces of company stationary and even putting together a book on his father's lovely sketchbooks. One of my most abiding memories of this time is of Paul standing on our roof garden in the sunshine smoking his cigars.
Then I was lucky enough to be taken under his film company's wing as a Director in the back of my small film "ROAD". It was a very prestigious Commercials Production Company. Actually it wasn't a successful move for me at all. I didn't have the skills to back up what I was doing (like, for instance I do now) and to be honest I've always the lacked the will to hob-nob in Soho. I've seen what it takes to be a successful Commercials Director - you've got to be incredibly charismatic, thick-skinned, unwaveringly persistent, possessed of an unflinching self-belief and a deadly networker - none of which I think would apply to me. So, even though Paul said he loved my second animated short "Party Animals" (this after I'd left their books) - I suppose we parted ways for a few years. Later I got some free space in an open-plan office in Noho and Paul came round to do some work with me, and I remember him recoiling with horror at the neon-lit phalanx of glazed-looking office-workers: "I..I...I.....I...I...I can't work here" before promptly fleeing (something I should have done myself...)
In January 2008 I heard from a friend that Paul was very ill with Emphysema. So after my estranged grand-father's funeral in Kent I drove down to see him in the woods in Sussex. I took a couple of books with me, the catalogue of my other
grand-father's collection and a sketchbook of drawings by an artist called
John Scarlett Davis. We had a cup of tea and looked through both books page-by-page and chatted peacefully. He was his usual self, if more gentle than I remembered him. As I left Paul he faltered a bit, his greatest work he said was "It's Not How Good You Are", the other books were OK he said, but that was his favourite. I firmly stated that it was a classic, a towering work, that "it was everywhere", and he seemed satisfied and reassured. I think he'd be pleased that this Seminar was going ahead and that people
were still adding to his book of condolences a year down the line. I'm sure his legacy will last.